It's day 6 of the festival, and starting day 2, Teresa and I had already split out to attend different classes, trying as much to cover the variety of classes available and what lessons that apply to either of us. Being an extrovert person, you don't go to a new place without meeting new friends.
And then again, my style when meeting new friends is to be quiet and observe, silently sizing them up and "warming-up" to the new friends, even if it had to take a few days. What can I say, I'm a slow learner.
Let me speak about the 4 close friends Teresa & I made over the last two days.
Digna - sweet chica from mumbai who also has a penchant for dancing and yoga like teresa and i
Sanjeev - tall indian dude from Jaipur who has a double meaning with almost everything said. that is to say, pun intended
Kelly - rock climbing dude from Colorado who acts like a kid in a playground
Katya - a real kid with gorgeous bright blue eyes and the ability to perceive like an adult
Teresa was in "silence" when she saw someone 'flying', and couldn't help herself but to remove her "silence" tag to start flying as well (as one needs to communicate while flying, or else they will crash). This activity kept us busily happy between classes.
on a personal note :
It took me 2-3 days to pluck the courage to release the inner fear and fly. also, it was a trust thing. I have issues trusting new people sometimes. Colorado asked everyday if I would fly with him, and yet, I was hesitant. I mean, he's a rock climber, he deals with people whom he has to trust and be trusted in return with their lives. So why was I scared? I'm not afraid of heights or afraid of falling, mind you. However, I was definitely being self conscious though, with my weight, size and flexibility.
I also think it was a person thing. I just didn't know if I could trust Colorado to fly me, among other things. And I was unusually more quiet and reflective during the whole time. Something else was stirring inside me, digging up past emotions and memories.
I became more like the person who enjoyed being behind the camera than being present in front of it. So I spent a considerable amount of time that first 2-3 days taking pictures instead.
During this period, I find myself wondering around alone alot, thinking about home, thinking about the past, and not truly participating in the present. Even though I was listening to the conversations, but it was obvious from my feedback that I wasn't really there.
It was time to stop dwelling and start living. of course, having Teresa around also helped to clear some clutter that was going through my mind and heart. I did take some time to hang out with Mother Ganges, to tell her my fears and to help let go of my haunted past. I did finally let the ghosts from my past be swept away by Mother Ganges, and also learn to trust Colorado to fly me.
And then again, my style when meeting new friends is to be quiet and observe, silently sizing them up and "warming-up" to the new friends, even if it had to take a few days. What can I say, I'm a slow learner.
Let me speak about the 4 close friends Teresa & I made over the last two days.
Digna - sweet chica from mumbai who also has a penchant for dancing and yoga like teresa and i
Sanjeev - tall indian dude from Jaipur who has a double meaning with almost everything said. that is to say, pun intended
Kelly - rock climbing dude from Colorado who acts like a kid in a playground
Katya - a real kid with gorgeous bright blue eyes and the ability to perceive like an adult
Teresa was in "silence" when she saw someone 'flying', and couldn't help herself but to remove her "silence" tag to start flying as well (as one needs to communicate while flying, or else they will crash). This activity kept us busily happy between classes.
on a personal note :
It took me 2-3 days to pluck the courage to release the inner fear and fly. also, it was a trust thing. I have issues trusting new people sometimes. Colorado asked everyday if I would fly with him, and yet, I was hesitant. I mean, he's a rock climber, he deals with people whom he has to trust and be trusted in return with their lives. So why was I scared? I'm not afraid of heights or afraid of falling, mind you. However, I was definitely being self conscious though, with my weight, size and flexibility.
I also think it was a person thing. I just didn't know if I could trust Colorado to fly me, among other things. And I was unusually more quiet and reflective during the whole time. Something else was stirring inside me, digging up past emotions and memories.
I became more like the person who enjoyed being behind the camera than being present in front of it. So I spent a considerable amount of time that first 2-3 days taking pictures instead.
During this period, I find myself wondering around alone alot, thinking about home, thinking about the past, and not truly participating in the present. Even though I was listening to the conversations, but it was obvious from my feedback that I wasn't really there.
It was time to stop dwelling and start living. of course, having Teresa around also helped to clear some clutter that was going through my mind and heart. I did take some time to hang out with Mother Ganges, to tell her my fears and to help let go of my haunted past. I did finally let the ghosts from my past be swept away by Mother Ganges, and also learn to trust Colorado to fly me.
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